The Overcomer Life

The more I read the Word of God, the more I realized that I didn’t understand what the word “profane” really meant. There are a few preachers who preached about it, but not explaining what it meant. How would we know what profane fire is without anyone explaining it? You would think that I could be the one to look it up myself. Imagine that! But I didn’t think about it for a long time. Maybe due to my fear of the Old Testament or my experience with words and grammar in the past. I was often afraid to read. I was never good at it. I was so slow. I couldn’t understand words. So I gave up. Learning things on my own seemed like a waste of time, because my brain could never understand anything.

But God broke through. If anyone can’t, thankfully He can! He broke through my stubborn head and gave me the understanding that I needed.

Aaron’s sons, Nadab and Abihu, offered profaned fire to the Lord. I knew enough that they obviously did something wrong but I didn’t realize the extent of it. Eventually, I looked up the word. It means disrespect. When I saw that for myself, it grieved me on an entirely new level. They didn’t just do something wrong, but they had disrespected the Lord. When disrespect happens, consequences happen. The Israelites constantly complained and murmured against the Lord while in the wilderness. That is disrespectful to the Lord. There are always consequences to our actions whenever there is disrespect. If someone is disrespectful to you, how does that make you feel? It hurts. I can’t imagine how God feels.

Jesus deserves the absolute greatest respect we could ever give. In my experience, I didn’t fully understand all what God had done and what Jesus had gone through on that cross to fully appreciate and respect Him. I still lived in disrespect. Maybe I was going through a lot or have yet to renew my mind. Maybe I was still an infant. I do not know. It’s hard to disciple yourself. It’s hard to parent yourself in the ways of the Lord especially.

Jesus doesn’t deserve profane fire. Jesus doesn’t deserve disrespect. He deserves our ALL.